Hey there friends and watchers,
It's been a long time since my last journal update, and it's been forever since I wrote a journal about my life.
But a t least I've got something to write now, I don't think there's any use for writing a journal when you don't have any news to tell.
The past few months I've been experiencing something that I've never experienced before, I guess you can call it 'love'..
When I was younger and still in high school I've had a crush on someone that was in my class, at the time I experienced it as being in love with that person and I thought that it was what 'loving someone' was all about. I couldn't sleep or eat and felt miserable for a long time because it wasnt mutual.
But ever since December 2013 I've learned that all that was nothing more than a crush, it had nothing to do with 'love'. I know this now because I've felt things and did things that changed my view on what love is. When you love someone it changes who are and you can't help it, you want to better yourself for that person. Not just yourself, also your life changes because you want to fight for a better existence with the person you love. A crush just makes you happy and joyful, but doesn't make you do all these crazy stuff, things that you never thought you were able to or make you travel hours and miles just to see that person.. And that's the difference between a crush and loving someone, but you won't know untill you meet the right person. But when you do, it's the most beautiful thing you'll ever find in your life.
Sadly all this seemed to have come to an end though.. and I don't really know how I'm gonna get through now, without it everything seems useless and pointless. Each morning there's this emptiness that makes me wonder why I should get up and the questions continue untill I can rest again.
If I can sleep that is, I lay awake a lot at night thinking all this through. I always thought an unanswered crush was bad, but these feelings are on a totally different scale.
Luckily there's also good news, it's one of the things I did to better my life. I've finally made the decision to go to college! So yes, I'm a student now.
I'm studying 'Communication and Mutlimedia Design'. So far it's pretty cool, it includes all kinds of things that interest me. I'm learning how to use Illustrator and Photoshop for example. But the amount of homework is totally f*cked up! I got sick in the first week (and last week I got sick a second time this month) and had to stay home for just two days, and I'm still behind because of it. I'm trying to get everything done in time, but it's so much. I don't even have time for commissions anymore. :/ I hope things will cool down after the first period, which is 8 weeks. This Monday is the start of the 5th week.
I like my fellow students though, our group is pretty cool and I have the feeling we get along pretty well so far. I'm also the oldest of our group but it's not bothering me. Oh, and the introduction week was a blast! I wouldn't have missed it for the world! Camping, city tour including a pub tour, pizza, playing pool, karaoke and parties. It was really fun!
I also had to have 2 of my wisdom teeth removed. They had to be removed surgically because they were growing sideways, as in 90* turned over.
One was removed in august, the second was removed last Thusday so I'm still having a stitch there right now. I wouldn't consider this as one of my favourite things to do haha..
One last thing before I go. I've created an account on Instagram yesterday, I'm planning on being pretty active there.
So if you'd like to follow my college life and my personal life in general, then be sure to click 'follow' on Instagram.instagram.com/patrick_mxs
Don't forget that I also have a Facebook fan page and Twitter:twitter.com/mmXstreamwww.facebook.com/Megamanxstrea…
I'll try to be as active here as I can be, I know that I haven't been active at all lately. My apologies..
Thanks for reading, untill next time!